Zuzu’s Birth

Suzanna Rose is here!! She joined our family almost a month ago and we are SO happy to have her earthside. The last little while has been so happy and tiring. Zuzu has such a sweet temperament, its crazy how it somehow feels like she has been here way longer than a just a few weeks.

This time around I decided I wanted to understand the whole process of birth better and so I read books, listened to lots of birth stories, watched some documentaries and decided that I wanted to have a midwife and hopefully go unmedicated.

Logan and I took a really great class that helped us wrap our heads around everything a bit better and it was really informative and awesome! Lots of coping techniques and tips for your partner to help you in labor. I always left feeling really excited about not only the babies arrival, but excited about the birth experience as well.

So the actual birth story! Around 37.5 weeks I started having tons and tons of braxton hicks contractions leading up to actual labor. They were really throwing me off because they would be super consistent for like 4 hours and then they would stop. I kept thinking that I was in early labor and they would start getting more intense but sure enough they would stop. After like the 10th day off this I felt kind of defeated and texted my midwife and asked if there was anything we could do to induce labor naturally. Because I was dilated to a 3 over a week before this point she said the only thing we could do was schedule an induction and I agreed to do so. We talked Tuesday morning and scheduled the induction for early the next morning! Which was 2 days before my official due date.

All Tuesday I had contractions but didn’t think much of it because I figured they were just Braxton Hicks again. I got ready for bed and fell asleep for about 45 minutes and ended up being woken up by painful contractions, I was excited and could tell these were different because I had to breath through them.  The contractions were painful but doable on my own so I let Logan sleep.  I just listened to my birth playlist and got ready in between contractions.  So after about 6 hours it was time to head to the hospital for the induction.  I was hoping that I would be more dilated and wouldn’t have to get any pitocin by the time we arrived because this time I was positive I was in labor! 

My parents had come over tuesday evening so we were good to go to the hospital early in the morning.  After we got there and got to our room my midwife arrived and checked me.  I was dilated to a 6 and 100% effaced.  I was so happy that the contractions were doing their job! 

The midwife broke my water and left us in our room to deal with contractions and for about 2 hours.  I did lots of deep breathing,  Logan did hip squeezes during contractions (I mean, what a champ) and the counter-pressure helped so much with the pain!  The pain was manageable and I felt pretty confident about how things were going. 

The nurse checked me after about 3 hours of labor and I was still at a 6.  I was preparing myself for hours more of contractions.  The nurse had been monitoring the babies heart beat every 20 minutes so that I was free to move throughout labor, but as the contractions progressed it was hard for them to get an accurate reading without having the monitor strapped on my belly.  They suggested that I lay on the hospital bed so they could get a better reading and I agreed but because the contractions were progressing laying on the bed sounded pretty awful.

Really quickly after we started monitoring the baby the contractions got CRAZY painful and it felt like I had almost no break in between them.  I started questioning if I could really continue without medication and I had tears running down my cheeks because this was feeling almost beyond what I could handle.  Logan was super supportive and helpful. Things started getting foggy at this point.  A bunch of nurses started coming in and my midwife arrived.  Even though I wasn’t really aware the nurses recognized that I was in transition and that it was almost time to start pushing. 

After the midwife came in I quickly told her I felt the urge to push.  I felt scared and overwhelmed and was frustrated because I thought I would be so prepared for the pain but when it was so intense almost all my coping skills left my mind and all I could think about was getting away from the pain.  I felt like if there was any way to get out of this situation I would have taken it! Buuuut too late. hah.  Logan, the nurses and the midwife were super encouraging and I began pushing.

After about 10 minutes of pushing and lots of instruction for my midwife, I started getting a hang of what I needed to do to help the baby come out and shortly thereafter the midwife said she had arrived!  The crazy pain was gone immediately and I reached down and grabbed Zuzu and put her on my chest.  I felt so peaceful and happy and was pretty emotional.  I remember saying I thought she looked just like Logan.  She was here with us after what felt like forever waiting for her and I was beyond happy.

My entire pregnancy Zuzu felt like this light that brought me so much peace.  I have had some hard things that I’ve been through the last few years and she gave me this renewed hope and I knew everything in life was worth the bad because the good overshadowed it 1000 times over.

I love my Logan, my Gemma and my Zuzu so so much!  My family means everything.  

Congrats to you if you read this whole post! 

Baby Girls Nursery

When we moved into our current place it was such a big change for us because we had moved from a one bedroom apartment where we were all really…..cozy haha. Not that this place is huge but having 3 bedrooms was such a nice change. I was just barely pregnant when we moved in and when I would pass this room I would imagine what it would look like with a crib and baby things inside.

I thought it would be fun to share how the nursery turned out. I wanted this little space to be super inviting and a relaxing place our baby could sleep and play. I have the best time watching spaces like this come together.

Love this crooked fiddle leaf fig tree. Now, lets see if I can keep her alive! This 3 drawer dresser from West Elm is a great size for the space. Tassel throw blanket is from Urban Outfitters. Crib is from Ikea.

I shared this print from Lennon & Birdie on my insta a month or two ago. I love it so much and everything else that she sells through her small shop.

My sweet Dad built me that little table on the left, and it really helped bring the room together. Also a perfect little spot for baby toys to rest. Bookshelves are from Ikea. Shag rug is from Lulu & Georgia. I was on the hunt for something light that I could hang above the crib, and when I came across Upton Home canvas prints I had to grab one for the nursery. I love how happy it is. Wire baskets under the table are from Target.

K these little bookshelves are the best deal from Ikea. $12 for each shelf. Love how you can display the cute book covers.

Double curtain rods are from West Elm. Rocking chair is from Target, on sale right now! its on the small side which is perfect for this small space. Globe Lamp is also from Target. Faux sheepskin is from Ikea. Can’t wait to rock baby girl and see her sleeping in that crib. 37.5 weeks and baby can’t come soon enough!

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Friday Ramblings – Picking out our tree

Last week we went to get our tree from the tree lot closest to our house.  I had the best time watching Logan and Gem play hide and seek in the trees and smell each and every tree to see which one had the best pine scent, ha.  Logan is VERY adamant about having a real tree in the house for Christmas and he’s totally made me the same.  I grew up with a faux tree and didn’t think anything of it but the real deal just makes the house feel super cozy.   Gemma kept saying “it looks like a forest in here!” When we brought the tree home haha.  We’ve been married 6 years and I have yet to buy a tree skirt so our trees just sort of hangin out on her own in the corner but the twinkle lights and shiny ornaments make it all good.

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This season has already been so fun with a three year old.  She says the most hilarious things and she’s just all around super stoked about every aspect of the holiday.  She asks if its Christmas every day.  We introduced her to those old school Christmas cartoons and ever since she is convinced we need to go to the snow so she can put a hat on a snowman and it can come to life.  I seriously love her so much and she is just full of energy, laughs and really great poses for photos (see below).

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We’re all kind of in disbelief that there are only 7 more weeks until babies due date.  When you’re chasing a toddler around it definitely helps with the checking off of the days/weeks.  But believe me I am still VERY aware of how long I’ve been prego and when this baby is supposed to arrive haha.

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Last year at this time Logan and I were in Europe for 10 days and although we had such a great time we felt like we didn’t really get to soak up Christmas time so I’m really going for it with all the christmasy things.  I’ve been trying to get shopping done early so I can relax with family the last bit of December so we’ll see how that goes.  I’m attempting a semi-homemade Christmas present for Gemma that migggghhhttt take a lot longer than anticipated, but still so excited to put it together for her.

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Christmas is totally magical and the only thing that would make this season a little better would be if baby girl had already made her arrival so we could love on her.  Happy Holidays!

 

Friday Ramblings

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I’ve been wanting to start a journal on here about life and our everyday happenings and I’m calling it “Friday Ramblings” because that title can allow me to pretty much write about anything I want and have it fit haha.

Happy Friday!

These last few weeks have been flying.  I’m 26 weeks pregnant today.  We celebrated Logan turning 28 on the 8th!  Gemma has been in school for almost two months and LOVES it 90% of the time. (which is sort of a miracle!)  Logan’s been pretty busy with work.  With the holidays right around the corner and trying to get things ready for baby girls arrival in January it’s just making the days go by so quick.  I cant decide if I’m loving it or if I just want to stop time and enjoy these last few months while its just the three of us.

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One thing I thought I would talk about on this post is what its like to marry your high school sweetheart.  With Logans 28th birthday that we just celebrated it took me back to our high school days, right after we started getting to know each other, because I remember his 18th birthday! crazy right?  I never thought that I would be one to marry my high school sweetheart or that I would get married so young.  Now that we’re 6 years into marriage and almost 10 years together I feel like there are some really amazing things and funny quirks about marrying someone you dated and married at such a young age.

  1. the many memories

we laugh all the time about our young selves and what we were like together.  the music we listened to.  the facebook status’ we would post.  our obnoxious PDA stories.  we have so many memories of our dating life and teenager-hood and I LOVE that.

2. yes, we are grown ups now!

one thing that we found to be kind of funny in the first few years of marriage were the comments some people would make to us. like “wow, didn’t you want to wait to get married till you were a little older?”  I know its a little more rare to get married young but we just sometimes felt like because we got married so young people sometimes felt like we weren’t going to succeed or that we were irresponsible for starting our lives together before solid careers/money/schooling.  For us, figuring out how to do life together was the best for us, and we had to really rely on each others support.

3.  there will always be ups and downs

because we’ve seen each other through so much and grown and accomplished a lot of “milestones” together we’ve learned that just because there might be a super stressful time or experience in life it doesn’t mean its going to last and it also doesn’t mean you are doing something wrong.  Life is hard at times but with support of loved ones and our Heavenly Father we can come out on the other side having learned more about ourselves and learning how to really love each other when things might not be pretty, and thats one of the most beautiful things right?

Anyways thats a little bit about our family life right now and some of what its been like for us starting our lives together so young.

 

 

 

 

Pregnancy Essentials & Bump Update

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I feel like we were waiting for so long to get pregnant with this baby.  Like I have said before we don’t have a hard time getting pregnant but we had life get in the way of having another child and when we finally did get pregnant with baby girl I was so excited.  I went for an OB check up before we even started trying and just looking at the ultrasound monitor gave me all the feels.  I could imagine seeing a little baby bean and hearing the heartbeat and I could’t help but feel excited and hopeful and scared all at the same time.

Because I felt like I had been waiting and waiting for baby number 2 I have had a totally different outlook this time around.  Not that I didn’t love being pregnant with Gemma, but this experience I’ve just felt more in tune. I already weigh more at the halfway point of this pregnancy than when I delivered Gemma full term but its honestly not even on the forefront of my mind. (Which coming from me is saying a lot)  I’m loving feeling every kick and I’m embracing the changes my body is making instead of resenting them.  Instead of fearing birth I’m actually so excited to give birth again and I think that birth can be one of the most beautiful and memorable days of your life.

There have been a few things that have been totally saving the day this pregnancy and I wanted to share for other mamas out there.

Links are in bold and underlined.

  1. GOOD pair of maternity jeans. 

Around 12 weeks I just couldn’t handle anything tight around my belly and I decided to break down and buy a cute pair of maternity jeans.  I decided on these Madewell skinny jeans with the full panel and have been loving how soft and stretchy they are.  Order one size down.  Haven’t bought these Madewell jeans in black yet but I’m pretty tempted too.

2. Hydroflask

Drinking TONS of water from my Hydroflask has really helped me stay cool and has kept my digestion on track..pun intended! haha but when you have a growing baby in your belly you can use all the help you can get.

3. Comfortable sweatsuit

I bought this Nike sweatsuit set during the anniversary sale and its the softest and most comfortable thing. Top and Bottom  in grey.  Pretty much what I’m wearing if its after 7pm, just ask Logan!

4. Positive Affirmations

Saying out loud or in your head positive affirmations.  Whether that be about your body, the baby, your life, your blessings.  It has really helped me have the proper mindset and positive/hopeful outlook I want to have.

5. T-shirts

You’re probably like..duh!  But if you haven’t been prego before buying a shirt that is actually long enough to cover your bump and is comfortable and breathable can be a game changer.  Love this one..and this one.

6. Pregnancy Pillow

This one is so essential!! Just got this memory foam one and love it!  I never bought a pregnancy pillow with Gemma and it is so great to be able to have something to put between your legs and help you stay on your side.

7. Birkenstocks

My feet don’t get super swollen but I am already a sweaty mess and wearing sandals just seems like the only logical option.  Also I got a pair of Birkenstocks when I was pregnant with Gemma 4 years ago and they have held up so well.  Worth every penny!

8. Shea Butter

Gemma was only 5lbs 11oz and I still got a few stretch marks.  Which is a bit of a bummer, I would like to keep them at a minimum this time around if I can.  Shea butter is super hydrating.  I am just hydrating everything, drinking tons of water, oiling up my face with my fav Biossance oil and my belly with Shea butter.  Logan doesn’t even want to get near me while we’re in bed haha.  He thinks all the moisturizers are sticky and will make him break out.  Kid doesn’t know what he’s talkin about haha.

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I am all about anything that helps a prego mama out.  Hopefully you liked reading about these things that have helped me out.

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Life lately

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I’ve been wanting to start journaling more on here.  I get an F for journaling in any other form and I thought it would be a good space to share photos and memories.

Gemma starts Preschool next week!! She keeps saying she doesn’t want to go, but I have a feeling after a few days she’ll be begging me to take her to school.  I’ve been so proud of Gemma lately because I feel like she’s coming into her own so much more.  She’s a pretty shy girl naturally but she’s been so much better about playing with other kids and making new friends.  She is the craziest/silliest girl ever around Logan and I.  We love her big vocabulary and the hilarious things she says. Like…

when we were driving home she said “I’m gonna fall asleep now because I’m tired.  If you have a problem you wake me up, okay?”

We got Gemma a goldfish about a month ago and she was so funny about it.  For the first few hours she treated it like her newborn baby.  She was hovering over the fish bowl watching her fish swim saying things like “Hi fishy! I’ll always keep you safe and I’ll never leave you alone.” or “awwwwwww fishy you’re so sweet!”

She has been asking why why why about everything!

Like “Hey mom, why is that car white?”  Its super cute until she’s on her fifteenth question and theres no end in sight haha.

We signed Gemma up for a princess ballet class and I’m so excited to see her running around in her tutu and ballet slippers.

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Logan is doing great!  He’s working so hard.  His hours are about 7-7 right now and his job is going well.  He is the best to have around and I look forward to him coming home every night!  We spent last night at the beach playing with Gemma and  I can’t wait to add baby girl to the family and especially see how Logan interacts with her.  He’s the greatest Dad.

6G4A84516G4A84456G4A8453I’ve just started feeling baby kicks in the last week!  Its the best!  I got tested early for Gestational Diabetes because I had it with my pregnancy with Gemma and unfortunately I do have it again.  I just met with a nutritionist to go everything again and its really not a hard “diet” to follow.  Just watching my carb intake a little more than normal.  Lately I’ve been reading two different books I’m loving, one I am re-reading is called Real Happiness, its about meditation and the impact it can have on your life.  The other book a friend recommended to me is called Natural Birth in a Hospital.  I’m really enjoying it so far.  I’m hoping to have an unmedicated birth and its been a good read!

We’ve been loving summer time but I’m totally starting to crave fall.  I feel like a basic girl that wants a pumpkin spice candle burning while wearing sweaters and drinking apple cider.

 

Home decor sale items I’m loving

So since we moved from a one bedroom apartment to now living in a 3 bedroom house I have been on the hunt for some good home decor items!  I’ve been having this internal battle about, what do I splurge on, what do I buy at Ikea, what do I try to do myself?  I haven’t bought much yet because I’m a sucker for good sales and have had some things I’ve been eyeing and waiting to go on sale.  A lot of things I was waiting to go on sale are on todays post! I thought I would share. Everything listed below in bold is on SALE

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BEDS/BEDDING

The White Crochet Duvet cover from Anthropologie is more that 50% off!! I would for sure buy this but I just bought a white duvet cover a few months ago.

This tasseled grid throw blanket love the colors in this.

OBSESSED with this Rattan Bed, wish I had another spare bedroom to put this in!

This Bohemian Platform Bed is super cute and minimalistic.

Amelia Platform bed

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CHAIRS

This Rhys chair is timeless!! Its pretty expensive but would be cute FOREVER.

Obsessed with anything rattan so obviously I’ve been wanting this Marte Lounge Chair.

I want this mid century Sebastian Chair from WE for our bedroom.

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OTHER FURNITURE

Amelia 6 drawer dresser is super versatile and would be cute anywhere

This Marte storage cabinet would be so cute with baby/toddler clothes in in! Am I right?!

Aria microfiber sofa is such a good deal!!

Mid Century Cabinet, I might get this as a side table for Gemmas room

These Retro Nesting tables would be perfect next to a sofa and only $139!

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MISC

Harvest Floor Mirror 45% off

Glass hanging pots! 30% off!

Mid century lantern 

Crochet throw pillow, 2 for $79!

Rohini Daybed cushions, $139 instead of $159

 

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Montana

Both of my parents grew up in Montana.  They met there, got married, and lived there for a few years while my Dad finished school.  I have so many great memories of visiting both sets of Grandparents in Montana while I was growing up.  Since all of my grandparents have now passed, being in that beautiful state makes me feel more connected to them and brings back lots of memories.  In 2000 my parents bought their property on the lake and ever since I have spent at least a week almost every summer since in this beautiful place.  The property has 150 cherry trees filled with the BEST cherries you’ve ever tasted.  But the main reason I love our tradition of going to Montana is because its usually one of the only time all my siblings, my parents and our growing family can all spend time together.  Over the years there have been many funny and important things that have happened at the lake house.  This is where Logan asked for my parents blessing before we got engaged,  many fun tubing, skiing, wake boarding adventures, there was a very eventful speed walking race one year, we eat the BEST sweet cherry pie made by my Mom, and many more memories.  Its never enough time in Montana with the fam, and we look forward to it every year! I thought I would share some photos from our recent trip.6G4A80986G4A8099Little cabinflathead lakeClear lake water

My Grandpa Olson would always come and visit us at the lake while we were in Montana.  He lived about 2 hours away and on his way to the lake he would always stop at this little bakery and bring us fresh donuts.  We decided to head to the bakery early one morning to celebrate what would have been his 85th birthday!  6G4A81676G4A8152 26G4A81576G4A81586G4A81566G4A81706G4A8155

While we were at the bakery we shared a hot donut and caramel pecan roll.  Both of which were amazing!  This cute couple that owns the bakery frosts their donuts by drenching the hot dough in a bowl of glaze by hand! So good! If your near flathead lake you should definitely stop by the Windmill Village Bakery.

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On our last day when all the cousins had arrived I shot a couple photos of all the cousins together with Grammy and Poppy.  I just love all these faces SO much!! Wish I could figure out a way to make this week happen more than once a year.

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Baby No. 2!!!

Baby no. 2 is on its way! Logan and are so grateful for this blessing and we can’t wait to add another little one to the fam. I thought I would share some details on here for those that are interested.

1. Was it planned?

YES! We were/are so looking forward to having another baby. We haven’t had a hard time getting pregnant but other things in life have gotten in the way for the last year or so. When it felt like the right time to try, we were beyond excited about having another baby.

2. When did you find out?

We actually found out on Mother’s Day! It was kind of funny actually. For whatever reason I was just having one of those days (probably because I was pregnant and hormones!) where everything felt like it was going wrong in life and I was feeling super negative. I was sure I wasn’t pregnant that month and while I was talking to Logan about being down he was like “wait when can you take a test?” I looked at the calendar and realized that I could take the test. I took the cheap dollar store test and after a few minutes there were two lines! My mood obviously shifted and we were both SO happy. But just to be safe I bought more test and kept taking them over the next few days just to be sure haha.

3. How far along are you? When’s your due date?

I’m 13.5 weeks right now and the due date is January 22nd! Which is kind of fun, because it’s my Moms birthday ❤️. Gemma and this little one will be about 4 years apart.

4. Has this pregnancy been different than with Gemma?

Totally different!! I was sick with Gemma for the first trimester, I threw up everyday a few times until about 14 weeks. This pregnancy I’ve definitely had my times of feeling nauseous but it’s way more manageable, and I haven’t had to throw up. Yay!! But the lack of energy has been the same with this baby as it was with Gemma. There have been a few days where I’ll get a good 8 hours of sleep and decide I need a nap at 10am. I’m feeling much more energetic now!

5. Is Gemma excited for the baby?

She’s been so funny about it. She’ll say things like “there’s a baby in Mommy’s belly!” And “can I see the baby?” She even kissed my belly the other day voluntarily and it was so cute but most of time I don’t think she remembers or really realizes what’s going on, especially since I don’t really have a bump yet.

6. How did you find out the gender so early?

We found out yesterday! We were so anxious to know, and my friends had told me about going to this ultrasound place, where they’ll tell you the gender as soon as 13 weeks, and if they can’t tell you 100 percent, you can come back in a week or two for free! So I figured, why not? We were both pretty sure it was a boy and we all we randomly wearing blue to the appointment. We told the tech that we thought it was a boy. What we didn’t tell her is that Logan and I were both hoping for a girl. So when she told us she went …” well, it’s not a male!” And I was like “it’s a female?!” haha not “it’s a girl?” We’re pretty surprised!!

Well I think that’s pretty much all I have to share! So excited for January and this baby girl!

Palm Springs

Logan and I just got back from Palm Springs.  We spent the weekend there celebrating our 6 year wedding anniversary.  We’ve decided we’re going to retire in Palm Springs one day.  We’re gonna be that old leathery couple that golfs together and sits in the pool all day!

Logan and I had to drive up separately because of his work schedule and let me tell you, my drive there was pretty funny.  I hadn’t eaten lunch before we left, and was starving so I stopped at in n out on the way.  I got a protein style cheeseburger and I got Gemma a burger and fries.  Thinking I was being super clever I stopped at a gas station close by and got Gemmas lunch all ready for her with her ketchup and all her burger broken up in one of those to-go boxes, even filled up the car with gas while I was at it and then started the rest of the way.  WELL let me tell you… eating a freaking protein style cheeseburger from in-n-out with all that spread and grilled onions and whatnot while simultaneously driving and trying to help regulate your 3 year old’s ketchup to burger ratio is nothing short of a HOT MESS! I was literally laughing as I was trying and failing to eat my sad protein style cheeseburger that was getting all over my face, car, and clothes!  But you better believe I got that thing in my mouth, and I would probably cry if there were to ever be footage released of the evidence.  So do yourself a favor and GET THE BUN!! especially if you’re the driver.

Another funny part of the drive were the windmills.  Gemma was so stoked to see those giant things!  She probably asked me 20X “Hey, hey, can we go to those windmills?!”  When I told her we weren’t allowed to get any closer she was super bummed..kinda sad but so cute to see how excited she was about them.

Sooo I thought I would just share some photos from our little get away.  While also sharing links to where we ate and a few things I wore and a list of the fun things we did while we were there!

We stopped in Joshua Tree National Park and its so beautiful!! We were only there for a few hours but I wanted to stay and explore.  Next time!

We stayed here and the hotel had great pools and rooms.

We ate at Trio our first night! So so good.

On Saturday morning we woke up early and drove out to Salvation Mountain.  This has been on my to-do list for a WHILE.  Its a hill in the desert that a local artist covered in adobe and thousands of gallons of lead free paint.  Its covered in Bible verses, christian quotes, and beautiful bright colors and flowers, my kinda place.  It’s a monument of Gods love.  It was really cool to see in person.

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The blue dress I wore and love is under $30! Everyone needs it for summer!

After Salvation mountain we went to brunch at Kings Highway Diner.  Its located in the Ace Hotel and Swim Club.  It was so good.  We shared the pancakes and the Highway Breakfast.

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We also went to Moorten Botanical Garden and got to get our fill of the pretty desert landscape!  Their Cactarium there is so so cute!

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We had the best time EVER!   Can’t wait to grow old in Palm Springs one day haha.

-Diana